Father-Son, Daily Journal 2/8/14

Last night Logan and I had a Father-Son date. We went out for dinner and to visit friends in Melrose Park. It was a nice night. We found a strange comfort with silence. All those pre-child fantasies I had where you do cute adorable things together, actually turns out to be mostly quiet evenings eating food together.

At this very moment it's just him and I eating breakfast; he's force feeding bananas into his face, and I'm just reading a book and drinking coffee.

It feels great to spend some extra time with my little buddy. I had been working overtime the past month and we have not had a chance to bond as much as I prefer. 

It's interesting how the relationship dynamics change when you have a child. Diane and I had just been two people for nearly six years before Logan joined us. Now we have to go out of our way to try and break away from the triangular family dynamic now that it is the daily default mode. Don't get me wrong, It's great, fulfilling and I've never had a second thought, but you can't add a huge responsibility like that and then keep all the other interesting parts of your personality without making a conscience effort and sacrificing some expectations.

That's the goal for the this weekend, for everybody including Logan to explore their individuality and find a little bit of space in this life cluttered with love and responsibility. 

Logan is actually playing all by himself right now. By his choosing he just walked out of the kitchen and I can hear him interacting with his toys on his own. 

I'm going to try and sneak a picture of the moment.  

Little Logan with all his independence and space was actually breaking the rules and adventuring behind the couch to retrieve a lost ball, I'm so proud of my rebel. 

Adventure on little guy, but don't let Mommy see you. If she does, I will always be your fall-guy.